The Life That I Have

by The Magic Lantern



To make anything is to walk a tightrope between forcing ones will on the world and having enough wherewithal to know when all you can do is float amid the flotsam and jetsam of a life's rolling waves. I have felt the acuteness of this balancing act more than ever in the making of this record. 

The title of the EP is taken from a poem by Leo Marks that was written as a poem code for the agent Violette Szabo in the Second World War. It's one of my Mum's favourite poems and over the last few years has become one of mine. It captures the depth of love and loss and something of its bittersweet beauty, which I've tried to convey this music. This record is dedicated to my mother.   


released January 31, 2020

Written by Jamie Doe
Produced by Fred Thomas
Arranged by Jamie Doe & Fred Thomas
Engineered by Fred Thomas & Ed Hillier
Mixed by Leo Abrahams
Mastered by Peter Beckman
Artwork by Richard Green

Performed by Jamie Doe and Fred Thomas. Saxophones by Dave Shulman & Ewan Bleach. Electric guitar by Harry Christelis. Recorder and backing vocals by Rhia Parker.

Thank you to Help Musicians UK for supporting this record through the 'Do It Differently Fund'.


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The Magic Lantern is the musical moniker of Jamie Doe.

Following his stunning third album ‘To The Islands’ released in November 2018, his new EP ‘The Life That I Have’ is a bridge between being and becoming, and confronts, sits with and acknowledges the inevitability of a loss witnessed in slow motion.

His new single ‘Gentle Face’ is out 8 November 2019.
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Track Name: Gentle Face
Gentle face
How I need you when I make mistakes
You put things in their rightful place
So we can go to sleep

And i’ll put the mountains back together at your feet
Piece by piece up until to the snowy peaks
While all the world sweats concrete

Tender one
I had a dream where all I did was run
And they knew what I had done
Please help me go to sleep

I pulled the plug and let the oceans drain away
We can cross them again some rainy day
When all our fears our hearts betray

We might as well
We might as well
Start over again

Silver tongue
Whisper words from all the songs we’ve sung
You know what we could become
So sing me back to sleep

And we've swapped the sky for a glowing tiny screen
Head down walking, trapped in the machine babe
So say farewell to the Holocene

We might as well
We might as well
Start over again
Track Name: Harvest Moon (For Dallas)
If a heart breaks all alone,
Does it make a sound?
And would anybody listen,
If it was booming all around?
Like the last tree crashing down,
From a forest once renowned,
We can see, but can’t hear ourselves falling,
We can see, but can’t hear ourselves falling babe.

We circle ’round each other,
Like atoms spin through space.
We’re solitary creatures,
Who crave a warm embrace.
And we all need to be looked after,
And to feel the balm of laughter.
But in crowds I feel lonelier than ever,
But in crowds I feel lonelier than ever babe.

Please stay a while and hold me,
Forget what’s been and gone. It’s from the death of innocence,
That true love can be born.
And if not now then someday soon,
Beneath a harvest moon,
We’ll lie and love again like old lovers do,
We’ll lie and love again like old lovers do.

We’ll lie and love again
We’ll lie and love again
We’ll lie and we’ll love again.
Track Name: From My Window
From my window
I see you
But you don't see me

A hundred stories
With no-one in them
But me, and the enemy and you

Your guardian angel's sleeping
While you're up here and weeping

You're cold and shaking
You lonely creature
You clear the ledge deep with snow

The pulse quickens
The tears are dried now
A crowd has gathered below

And mothers baby's falling
Through arms outstretched and calling

That it's not the ending
There are just more stories
Track Name: Family Affair
What came easy
Oh the frustration
What a cruel hand
You’ve been dealt

To see the wave coming
With nowhere to run to
And just our hands to hold

It’s a family affair
To make peace with despair
And singing songs
To stave away the tears

A wreck in slow-motion
So slow it seems normal
That each fresh loss, stings less

But joy finds a way through
Through each new hole in our hearts
To even laugh at how lucky we are

It’s a family affair
To make peace with despair
And singing songs
To stave away the tears

How many goodbyes
Do we have in us?
But give me strength
For the last
Track Name: Winter (Bill's Song)
Winter’s cold is coming,
Lonely people stay indoors,
Huddled ’round their heaters,
Huddled ’round their heaters,
Like sailors missing shore.

We’re confronted every morning,
Of still waiting to grow up,
All your questions will be answered,
Your questions will be answered in time.

So put on all your jumpers,
And scream around the house.
And let it out...

The day’s the same as always,
But now it’s growing dark,
And nobody comes calling,
Nobody comes calling anymore.

If you’ve got no one to hold,
You can hold onto me,
You can hold onto me,
We’ll warm ourselves.

Where’s my lover?
And when’s my time?

In heaven we’ll find old friends,
We might laugh and make amends,
We might laugh and make amends,
Enjoy ourselves.

Where’s my lover?
And when’s my time?

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